The last few months my life has been on a downward spiral. Some of which I had no control over. April 13th I lost the first man I ever loved. The most wonderful human being I ever had the pleasure of knowing. My mentor. My hero. The man I will always to proud to call "dad". Three days after his passing his sister also passed.
If my dad would want us to take anything away it would be the knowing that there are now two more precious souls watching over us, ever watching, ever guiding, ever present.
As for the rest of the stuff that has gone on, well I realize that once again I have slipped into my old habits of negativity. It's startling to realise that I can slip back to that negative thought frame of mind without even knowing its happening. Oddly enough after 6 seasons I find myself feeling like a newby at this.
Today I took the time to look at my backyard. It was a pleasant surprise to see that the flowers were growing like crazy and the grass is turning a beautiful deep green, birds singing so loudly. For the first time in a long time I found myself feeling like my old me. Spring is definately in the air. So there is no better time to begin my personal growth.
As for intentions, well thats something I am going to take my time with. Right now I just need to get back that positive energy.
So onwards and upwards!