I have been missing something in my journey the past few months, something wasn't clicking with my intentions. I had forgotten that my intention is not to accumulate yet more things, not to achieve more so I can stroke my ego, not to make my life pleasing to others in order to be loved. I watched that film of Wayne Dyer's last night, and I am now re-aligned with my purpose!
I am here to be HAPPY and to SERVE!
THAT'S IT! Nothing else! In the past I have struggled with the "serving" bit, as mothers and women sometimes give of ourselves until it hurts us. Oprah says that she wakes up and asks God "How can I serve today?" And lord knows she isn't doing too badly! She's no doormat! I am starting to see that it isn't giving ourselves away, but giving THROUGH ourselves that is what brings us joy. Like the woman who loved drawing in the film, she had to take back the time for herself, so that she can give of herself better. She is giving to the world just by creating beauty, and that is hard to understand sometimes. For me anyway!!
I have also had an issue with the being HAPPY part. I have been taught that being happy meant earning the happiness, that getting or doing something would then MAKE me happy, but not until then. That sort of happiness is a goal, not a state of being. But I get it now!!! I just desire BEING happy. And if they end goal is happiness anyway, then why not just start out by being happy now??? So, I now intend to be happy, whatever is coming at me, like Wayne Dyer being cheerful when a kid squirted him with a squirtgun, he just smiled and said to the Mom "It's okay, it's water, it's soft."
I am therefore crossing out the intentions I wrote the other day and re-writing them, they felt a bit hollow and shallow, no real enthusiasm or joy in them. Funny how I thought they would make me happy by achieving them! Most of them were just goals I thought I should have! How crazy is that??? Glad I saw this film before starting the Challenge tomorrow, this lesson came right on time.