Yes, I'm still here. Today was and will be a quiet day, one of which I can stop and just think and absorb everything that I've been learning and feeling. I'm much calmer about everything now, since speaking with him on Sunday Night I feel better and more at peace with myself.
On him- he's yet to make any comment to anything I said Sunday Night. But with that being stated he did email just to say morning and he does ask me about my day. He sent an email today telling me he wants us to do some fun things as a family this weekend. (this was one of my things, he's always going out and we are ALWAYS stuck at home)
Another comment I made to him was: Why are we so different? You can spend $100s or $1000.00 whenever you feel, but when I ask to get a book all you allow me is $30. His response was, so if I give you the same amount you shouldn't be bugged by it. Course I told him it wasn't possible how much he spends to give me the same amount, still pay bills and have fun with the kids. At first he argued, but when I said to be honest he agreed. I told him he just has to quit going period.
Today we cashed a check, only I can since I have an account and he doesn't. He had me withdraw money, bought a few groceries and of course was getting ready to leave. But not before giving me a portion of what was in his pocket. Here, book money. Yeah he gave me money, which means he's going to one place. Not even half. I know this might sound trivial but to me, it shows he isn't willing to stop. The money he gave me is to shut me up.
This week: concentrate more on self and start working out.
Manifested some parking spaces this week too, fun exercise. Oh and I rented a movie but before going I wished I had the code to get a free one. Once at the rental someone gave me a code, he said, "We all need to look out for one another." I thought this was so kind and neat.
This week I'll continue to ask for guidance as well as some income to come in for me. More than what I normally make. I'm a blogger so it can get pretty hard earning money, but I know I can do it.